Found That Spark!

I took some time and got back to me. I got back to who I was and I think I found parts of me that have been missing for some time now. I'm not completely put back together, but I'm getting there.

Being able to sit down with my husband and reconnect and discuss a lot of things on our minds was exactly what I needed to do. Sitting there with him and hashing everything out just ignited such a spark in me, I actually feel like a love-sick kid again, but in the best way.

I thought that for the longest time that I would have to always fight for my husband to be in my life. I had to fight with his family and tried so hard to prove that I was good enough for him. But in the process of doing this I actually took away pieces of myself. Pieces of me that my husband initially fell in love with.

Standing up to his family has never been easy for him and it definitely wasn't easy for me either. I'm sure it's not easy for a person to do with their family. So I thought that I had to be his voice for him, but in all actuality I was deameaning him just like his family had done and still tries to do to this day.

These past few months haven't been the easiest for either of us. But through it all we've stuck by each other. Sure we've argued and said things we didn't mean, but no marriage is perfect. It's the little cracks that can falter a marriage, but if you work together to mend those cracks soon enough you won't be broken anymore.

This blog was about us saving each other. I've said in previous blogs that no one's life is perfect (not even mine) and it's the truth. Whether you have one rainy day out of the year or a dozen right in a row just remember that the person by your side is there for you. Through thick or thin my husband has been there for me and I'll continue to be there for him.

Thankful

I'm thankful that I married my husband. Thankful that through the good and the bad we will always love one another. Thankful that my Mom is still here on this earth. Thankful that she still wants to help me no matter how old I get. Thankful that I have my brothers to turn to when I need them the most. Thankful that they can make me laugh when I'm being too serious. Thankful that I was able to spend the time I had with my Poppy and Dad before they were called back home.

Today was a day for me to be thankful for the people I have/had in my life.

So what are you thankful for?

My Favorite Movie



This is my all time favorite movie!!

Directed by Steven Spielberg in 1975, the movie Jaws is actually based on the novel of the same name by author Peter Benchley. The film stars Roy Scheider (Chief Martin Brody), Richard Dreyfuss (Matt Hooper), Robert Shaw (Quint), Lorraine Gary (Ellen Brody), and Murray Hamilton ( Mayor Larry Vaughn).

The above links for Jaws, the actors/actresses, the director, and author can explain why this movie was so amazingly great, a lot better than I ever could here on paper. So if you would, please read.

Also, besides the stellar cast and crew was the music behind the film. Enter legendary music director John Williams, who came up with the most terrifying music sequence in film history. And to think it all started with just three little notes. Take a listen below to see what I mean.

http://youtu.be/mWLO4acMTCM

 

To this day that music still sends shivers down my spine, especially when I'm near water. You just never know what could be lurking underneath that glassy surface. I don't think it matters how old I get, I'll always have a craving to watch Jaws, even though it's made it where I never want to go into the ocean for a swim...lol.

 

Jaws vs. Martin Brody (aka Roy Scheider)



Do You Know?

 

Movies. Everyone has their favorite for one reason or another. Is it the plot or the gorgeous actor/actress that's onscreen? Or perhaps it a funny line or a fantastic twist at the end? Whatever the reason everyone has a favorite movie, but sometimes it's not easy to narrow it down to just one.
 
In my case this isn't the truth. I have one movie that sticks out among all the rest. I swear I've watched this movie over 100 times (yes that's how much I love it). A few of you might be saying why would she watch a movie more than 100 times? Is it really that good?
 
The answer is YES! The movie is that good. I love this movie not only for the actors/actresses, but for the plot and the amazing way the director was able to take the book and put it on the big screen. So I decided that for tomorrow's blog I'll discuss my favorite movie (no this will not be boring).
 
I'll bring up all the good and bad points (even though I'm a bit biased). The camera angles, the script, the lines, the actors/actresses, the director, and even the author of the book that the movie came from.

• Universal bought the rights to the book for $150,000 (the author was over the moon).
• The director said the movie was a time in his life when he had courage and stupidity.

Think you have an idea what the movie is? Hopefully the two hints above helped you out some. I hope you all enjoy the movie blog tomorrow!

25

Tomorrow I officially turn 25. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it just yet. My husband, Mom, and brothers keep joking around with me that I'm really old. And in a sense I think that I am. Sure some of you who are reading this would probably kill to be 25 again, but I'd kill to be 14 again.

I'd like to be able to go back and be 14, knowing what I know now. Maybe I wouldn't have made some of the mistakes I made. Maybe I would've made different ones. At 14 I never thought what I'd be doing or where I'd be when I turned 25 and maybe I should've thought about it more.

As I've said before, I am happy and content with the way my life is, but then again what if? There goes that damn 'what if' BS again. Turning a quarter-century old scares some people, but it doesn't scare me. And 'no' I don't feel like I'm gonna go through a quarter-life crisis...lol.

I'm glad that I know what I know at 25. I know that I don't know everything, but then again I'm not supposed to. Still I feel kinda in shock, that tomorrow means that it'll be 11 years since I had my first job. Tomorrow will also mark 7 years that I've been out of highschool (wow).

It seem's like time has just flown by and some things are just distant memories. But every decision I've made has brought me here. It'll be interesting to see what 25 brings me. Tomorrow marks a new page and I'm excited to begin writing another chapter for my book called Life.

This Day

Yesterday I was excited about telling all of you what I found from my Ancestry tree. Sitting here today maybe I wonder if maybe I should have just told you yesterday. I discovered that on both my mother's and father's side I have Native American ancestors. I know that I should be more excited, like I was yesterday, but the excitement has disappeared.

Three years ago today I lost my best friend. I lost the person that I could talk to about anything and could trust to keep my secrets. I lost the person who taught me everything I wanted to learn. I lost the person that in my heart can never be replaced. I lost my Poppy.

I sat up last night until 1:01AM. The exact time my Poppy passed away. I sat there and wished and hoped that I could just go to sleep, wake up, and have this all be a dream. That when I awoke I'd be able to just jump in the car and drive down and see him. Sitting there. Smiling at me and asking how I'd been. Just like nothing changed.

The tears seem to fall so much easier when this time rolls around. No matter how hard I try to I can't hold them in any longer, just like that day when I knew he was gone. They fall onto this keyboard and I know I should just wipe them away but I let them sit there. Each tear is another piece of him that I'm losing and I can't lose him again.

Maybe I'll start to bottle up all my tears and keep them on a shelf. And each time I look at them I won't have the urge to cry anymore because I'll see all the tears I've already shed. But I doubt that I'll ever be able to stop crying. I just want my life back the way it was before everything crashed down around me. I want the hurt to stop.

You know when people say 'goodbyes aren't forever', it's so untrue. Because I know I have a way's to go until I can ever see him again and for me it feels like I never will. I just wish this day would disappear and that I could just sleep through it and not have to deal with the pain. If only.

Very Exciting News!

After taking yesterday off and resting my brain I certainly felt a heck of a lot better! I felt like I could tackle anything and that's just what I did early this morning. I sat in front of my laptop for what seemed like an hour, but in retrospect it was actually 4 hours!

While digging deeper into my Ancestry tree and discovering more documents and amazing facts I discovered something fascinating, but I'm going to reveal this all to you tomorrow! I want to be able to have all the facts together before writing anything else.

Please feel free to take guesses. But just a heads up, it's not going to be as easy as it was with the blog "Take A Guess". Hope to hear from you all and remember think old world history!